This is not a book.
It is a guided sensual experience, part reading, part writing, part listening,
and part embodied practice.
This is not another self-help project to improve managing yourself.
It is a seven day guided journey for when you’re tired of holding it all together and want to know what’s yours vs what you can let go of.
You learned early on which version of you kept the peace, got approval, or simply didn’t cause trouble.
The strong one.
The caring one.
The lovable one.
The one who held it all together.
And you’ve been managing that act ever since.
But it’s not you.
It’s a performance.
An expression of survival mode.
The survival role you perfected so you wouldn’t lose love, safety, stability, acceptance.
That’s Not Me is where the real you, the one under the act, finally gets to fucking breathe.
This isn’t a self-improvement plan. It’s a conversation with the parts of you that got left out of the plan.
It’s about slowing down enough to feel what’s been underneath the surface.
You learned early which version of you kept the peace, got approval, or simply didn’t cause trouble.
The strong one. The caring one. The lovable one. The one who held it all together.
That version of you may have been intelligent. It may even have been necessary. But when the role becomes automatic, it gets harder to tell what you actually feel from what you learned to make easy for everyone else.
That’s Not Me is a guided sensual seven-day journey into that difference. Through reading, writing, body maps, somatic inquiry and guided audio, you begin noticing what arrives before the performance takes over.
✨ Full-color, soft matte cover
✨ app. 300 pages with full color illustrations, 8 chapters with large margins that gives you plenty of space to journal, doodle, and reflect
✨Large format, 8″x10″, for comfortable writing experience
✨ 2 audio-guided sessions per day accessed via QR code in the book hosted on a course platform
✨ 1 audio-guided imaginal journey deep into your mind to meet an aspect of yourself accessed via QR code in the book hosted on a course platform
Each day follows a deliberate rhythm:
✨ Listen and arrive in your body.
✨ Read and recognize the pattern.
✨ Write and separate what you learned from what feels true.
✨ Map where it lives in your body.
✨ Practise responding from a more honest place.
Hear the tone of the journey before you step in.
Take a moment to read the frequently asked questions about this title.
690,00 kr
690,00 kr
The I Awake books are the integration of everything I’ve learned so far, lived and the raw, sensual magic of being human.
Together they map out the Sensual hero’s journey™.
It’s not just about awakening to a deeper awareness.
It’s about returning.
To the self. To the senses.
To the shared.
To enjoying ourselves together while we’re here.
I no longer choose between solitude and connection.
I live in the place where they kiss.
Camilla Wellton
Eight chapters. Seven stages to explore at your own pace. The final chapter is an integration imaginal journey, giving you space to bring the experience together.
In the recordings, I guide you through a deliberate pace, pauses and sequence designed to help your nervous system settle. My voice and the music invite you to notice bodily responses alongside your thoughts and feelings. You can also choose separate background music on the course platform to carry the atmosphere into your reading and reflection.
Each of the seven stages includes:
An opening guided exercise with my voice and music composed especially for the I AWAKE universe. The day’s chapter to read and explore. Three writing prompts, with space for your responses. A body map as the fourth prompt, to notice and record what you feel. A closing guided exercise with my voice and the original music.
You also receive The Circle , the guided imaginal journey for integration, and a longer guided practice to return to whenever you want time with yourself.
Eight chapters across seven stages, with reading, guided audio, writing prompts and body maps.
This is the print edition. Your book is purchased from Sensual Institute.
Notice when a familiar role takes over before you have checked what you want.
Question the rules you absorbed about goodness, belonging and what you are allowed to need.
Find language for yourself beyond what other people praise or expect.
Recognise when being liked starts shaping your answer.
Practise a response that includes your actual preference.
An audio excerpt from That’s Not Me.
